Ready? 

Definitely not. Kailan nga ba ako naging ready sa bawat pagharap ko sa mga ibinabato sa akin ng mundo? And I’m pretty sure hindi lang ako ang nakakaranas nito. 

Madalas sinasabi ko sa sarili ko, “kaya mo yan!” ever since, yan lang yung paulit-ulit kong pinaninindigan. Even though I have 0% of knowing about a thing, go lang! 

Di ko din alam how I ended up being like that. All I know is, takot akong masabihan ng “tanga” or mapagalitan before because of not being able to do something. So, I always try to be able to do everything. 

And it’s exhausting. But what’s more interesting is that I’m only able to figure it out now! 26 years old na ko. And honestly, there’s a lot I’m only learning and understanding now about myself. 

Even up to these days, I still worry a lot. But I also got tired of telling things to people. I suddenly am not eager to say things out loud. I just… I just want to resolve it quietly unless it really concerns someone and if it affects me a lot, I try to write it. 

There are a lot of things I still wanna do but I don’t really know where I’m good at. But at the end of the day, I just do it and still tell myself, “Kaya mo yan!” 

Kakayanin mo 🙂